Stupid Decision #1: Despite the fact that I have NO FREE TIME EVER and am TOTALLY OVERLOADED ON ALL FRONTS, for some reason I keep taking on more and more responsibilities. Some of them are awesome and exciting and completely worth it (my advisor wants me to present our paper at a poster seminar this semester!), but others are completely unnecessary and need to be delegated (I offered to drive 30 minutes to meet with someone about our group project between an another meeting and class next Wednesday; then I accepted a big project at work that will require extra hours and a quick turnaround) and now I'm stressed out all over again. STUPID.
Stupid Decision #2: Despite the fact that I, you know, have an eating disorder and need to quit doing shit like this, I've been really bad about getting all my calories in this past week. Now I'm grumpy and have headaches all the time and can't sleep. STUPID.
Stupid Decision #3: I am also being terrible about taking my medication. No real reason, except that periodically I go through these phases where I decide that I hate my medication and want to rebel and ditch it for a while. Plus I am embarrassed about going back to see my psychiatrist after the terrible place I was in last time, and skipping meds means that I can go longer before needing an appointment for more refills. My anxiety hasn't really been a problem yet, but I know that going off my meds abruptly is asking for trouble. STUPID.
Stupid Decision #4: This morning at the gym, I was on a treadmill next to this girl who I see there all the time. And being the obsessive, irrational, ultra-competitive person that I am, I decided to smoke her (NO I DON'T KNOW WHY). So even though I had planned on a short easy run, I jacked up the speed and pounded out X miles at a ridiculous pace for no reason other than to be a show-off. Now my hip, which had been essentially healed, hurts again. STUPID.
There is probably a ton of other dumb stuff I've done recently too, but I think that's enough to share on the world wide web. You guys! Usually I'm smart! But sometimes my own stupidity astounds me.