I really hate subjecting you guys to a string of negative posts, but things are hard. Really, really wishing I had a better outlook right now. I just got off the phone with my mom after having a
I recently started a neuropathic pain medication, which I'd been resisting for a long time because it sounded scary and you know how much I LOVE DRUGS. For a long time, I didn't want to believe that the pain wasn't some fluke thing that would just go away on its own. By the end of the summer, though, I was not coping well at all and my doctor convinced me to start on a tiny dose. It's been two or three weeks now, and no huge changes. I sleep a little better at night, and that's about it. My doctor (I'd give her an initial, but I can't imagine anyone reading can/wants to keep track of my elaborate medical team) said to increase the dose after a couple weeks, and now I'm waffling on whether or not to do that since I was hoping to stay on the lowest amount possible. This drug can supposedly cause weight gain and dry eyes at higher doses—two things I cannot handle right now. Although, I suppose I'm not handling the pain very well either.
Okay, negative nattering over. I met with my honors thesis advisor yesterday after class and even though I'm a little overwhelmed about the project, I'm really excited to work with him. He's one of those professors who's so brilliant it's scary. I get really intimidated talking to him because his IQ probably surpasses mine by about 50 points, but he's also super nice and down-to-earth. His office has lots of family pictures and about 8 bajillion books, which definitely earns him brownie points in my eyes.
Then I spent two hours tabling with the rest of the exec board for my honor society at a campus-wide fair thing we have every fall, which sounds lame but was actually really fun. Mostly because I spent the two hours not sitting at our table, but instead bouncing around to other tables. My table was boring! I even stole a Tootsie Roll from some other group's table. I plan to tell R first thing at my appointment tomorrow.
No matter how shitty my mood is, this video still cracks me up every time I watch it. It starts off a little slow but keep watching, it's totally worth it. The Gotye song used to make me want to claw my eyeballs out, but now I giggle every time it comes on the radio.
Okay, I just watched it again and I'm feeling way better than when I started writing this. Happy Thursday!