Hey all—I was in a pretty sad place when I last posted. I'd been really upset and was crying off and on all day and really needed to just vent and tell the world I'M HURT AND IT'S NOT OKAY. So I wrote my post and hit "publish" and walked away, still feeling pretty crappy. Then later that night, I came back to all your wonderful comments and literally cried as I read them because I felt so understood and supported and loved. It meant the world to me and I'm doing much better, thanks in large part to you guys. I started to go back and respond to each and every one of your comments, but then my laptop pooped out on me and has been in the laptop hospital since Wednesday.
Anyways, I've got my computer back and am happy to report that things have been looking up from Tuesday. It's not that I've been trying to keep everyone in the dark about the nerve pain, it just makes me upset to talk about it and the "chronic" part is still really hard to swallow. That's all I really wanna say about it right now, sorry. If anyone like really wants to know more or ask questions or anything please feel free to send me an e-mail: firstname.lastname@example.org.
As far as other updates, today was my last day at work. Well, I actually have one last project to finish up on Monday, so I'll probably just work on it at home for a couple hours and submit it to my bosses via e-mail. This internship was an incredible experience for me, and I'm SO happy I was able to land it. My mom and dad were thisclose to making me stay home and enter treatment in May, but I got my shit together and made it work and I'm REALLY proud of that.
Speaking of treatment, things are still mostly moving forward. I'm eating nearly everything on my meal plan and generally being pretty cooperative. My sessions with R still often resemble teeth-pulling efforts, but hey! At least I'm eating, right? My weight is up almost to where it was exactly a year ago when I was returning to college after taking a semester off for treatment. It's crazy to me that I've been seeing R and J for almost a year now. And it took almost a year, but I'm actually doing what they've been telling me to do all along. Whoops!
Oh yeah, I'm moving tomorrow. And no, I have not started packing. It's not as bad as it sounds though - we don't have to move any furniture, and the new apartment is literally two blocks down the street. I'm just planning to throw stuff in my car and make as any trips back and forth as needed. My mom is getting into College City late tonight, we'll spend the whole day tomorrow moving, and then she leaves Sunday morning. School starts on Tuesday and I am.not.ready.
You guys! My jeans are getting all tight! I haven't worn jeans in, like, forever because it has been approximately 508292 degrees here every day all summer long so I've gotten away with dresses and skirts for work which are way more forgiving, but I tried on a couple pairs this weekend and the situation is dire, I tell you. DIRE. It's gonna be fall soon and I don't exactly want to be known as Girl Who Wears Sloppy Sweats Everywhere for my senior year, ya know?? Help! Bear in mind that I hate shopping! And I don't have money!