Monday, April 2, 2012
Messing Up
I'm starting to freak out a little bit about going to see my dietician tomorrow. I didn't do so good with the meal plan this week, and I'm dreading trying to explain to her why I messed up again. Every logical course of reasoning points to: A) follow the meal plan, B) drink the damn Boost, and C) get the hell over the fact that your butt will get bigger. It all makes perfect sense. But then why is this so damn hard to actually do?
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There's a million reasons why it's hard to do - but knowing them might not really help. But here's one thing I do know: once you start doing the things you'er supposed to do, you get some momentum and things become easier and start to feel comfortable. I used to have a saying I'd repeat to myself. It was simple and I learned it from an older woman I was in treatment with. The saying is: "Just begin." You can say "just begin" in many situations. For example: deciding whether or not to fill the 1 cup measuring cup all the way to the top: "Just begin." Meaning, just start pouring the food in the measuring cup. When a plate of food is in front of you: "Just begin," meaning just take that bite. When feeling frozen with fatness and my-jeans-are-tight-ness: "Just begin" means, just get on with your day, just start walking, just start talking, just start being. So... "Just begin" might mean - just pick up the boost, just open the cap, just take a damn sip - you know? Because, often, the hardest part is just beginning - but once you've got that momentum, it usually turns out to not be so bad. Sometimes I'd be like "1... 2.... 3.... begin." And then I'd go.
ReplyDeleteI really love this advice, Laura. The hardest part definitely IS just starting, because I exaggerate the consequences in my mind, like if I eat this one first bite then I will eat everything in the kitchen and balloon up into a whale. But if I refuse to eat that first bite at all, then I'm taking myself out of the game before it even starts. Thanks for putting it in such helpful terms.
DeleteGlad it was helpful! Have a nice (and nourishing) day!
DeleteI'm sorry it's been a rough stretch mealplan-wise. You're absolutely right--it's hard. For me, if I can just grit my teeth and get through 7-10 days of consistently following my mealplan, it gets exponentially easier after that. I hope the appointment goes well! And good luck with the mealplan--you can do it!
ReplyDeleteHi Alie - I get attached to routines super quickly, so the meal plan definitely get easier once I just suck it up and do it. Of course that means I have to break out of my old ingrained routines first! Thanks for reading, take care.
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