I'm about ready to call it quits with R. It's just not working. I've waffled on this for a long, long time (sorry!) but now I don't really feel like there's much of a choice anymore. My thoughts aren't organized enough for me to give a full explanation yet, but I will soon, and will keep you posted on what's happening in that regard.
Our session today was going okay, until we got to a point in our conversation when I had to stop him and say: "Please don't laugh. I don't think that's funny." Not getting into specifics at the moment, but suffice it to say that I was terribly offended by the way he reacted to something that I said. Something that was honest, and real, and not in any way comical.
It doesn't make a whole lot of sense to start shopping around for a new therapist when I'm only going to be in College City for a few more months (probably, depending on the Grad School situation, which is yet to be determined...) but I'm also not exactly confident enough in my emotional stability to go therapy-less until next fall, or whenever I get settled in whichever city I end up. So, my only reluctance is related to giving up the stability of current Treatment Center for the remainder of my time here.
Lots to think about, I guess. Stay tuned.
And to everyone who read my last post and made me feel like a champion at life, YOU ROCK.
It's so tough to make the decision to leave a therapist. I know you haven't outlined it all here, but you are a very intelligent woman and I don't think you have entered this decision lightly. It is really disconcerting that he acted so unprofessionally when you were being so honest and open during a session.
ReplyDeleteI agree that it might not be best to go therapy-less until fall, but if this relationship is beginning to be detrimental to your recovery, I definitely suggest you find something else, even if it's just for a few months.
Hang in there!
Jess
Between this (Really HORRIBLE) interaction with him, and the trouble with his religion/BC comments, I think you're absolutely right to make a change. If he doesn't make you feel like you can be 100% honest without fear of judgment or an inappropriate reaction on his part, then it's probably not going to keep you moving forward in your recovery. I really hope you're able to find the support you need--I really believe it's out there! You've come so far with your health and outlook, I wouldn't want to see anything jeopardize that. Take care!
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