On the school front, the semester is getting started and deadlines are mounting. I have a big thesis milestone in about two weeks, and then the final draft is due about two weeks after that. Then we go on spring break, and I'll defend the week we get back. Can't believe how fast things are going.
Random book recommendation: The Spirit Catches You and You Fall Down by Anne Fadiman. It's quite illuminating and thought-provoking. Especially as I'm coming from a patient's perspective, it gave me a lot to mull over regarding clinicians, quality of care, medical ethics, etc.
In other news: the more I think about it, the more confident I am about my decision to stop seeing R. Although I don't feel great about the whole situation, it really is time. My only question now is whether or not to try to find someone new for the rest of the semester. There's a chance that I will be leaving College City for good in mid-May, which would mean that I'd only have 3-4 months max with the new person. Given how long it takes me to warm up to someone, I'm not sure if that would be at all productive. I am feeling much more emotionally stable and functional compared to most of last year, so I could conceivably be fine without therapy; plus, the ED stuff is vastly more under control that it's ever been, so I would feel comfortable getting some distance from College City's Major ED Treatment Clinic, which is where I go now, and potentially seeing someone who doesn't necessarily specialize in EDs. But regardless, it still scares me a little not to have any safety net in place.
I think that's most of what's on my mind today. Take care, everyone!