Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Ups and Downs

Good: My Achilles is not torn, most likely just strained. The doctor at our student health center was very thorough and knowledgeable; when I mentioned my osteopenia, he immediately ordered an X-ray just to be safe. I got the impression that he suspected an ED, but he handled it very professionally and thus provided my first ever positive experience with campus health services.

Better: I went for the X-ray this morning and my foot is not fractured. Thank God. Additionally, my insurance rocks and I didn't have to pay a dime.

Best: My courses for next semester are finalized. One of them is with a professor whose class I attended for a week last January before going on medical leave. This afternoon, she sent me an e-mail saying that she was glad to see my name on her roster again and hoped I was doing well. It was the littlest thing, but it seriously made my day.

Bad: My foot isn't broken, but it still hurts like hell. I've been taking an anti-inflammatory and icing, but the pain just won't ease up. I can't exactly stay off my feet, since I probably walk at least 2-3 miles a day just getting around campus. Not sure what else I can do.

Worse: I'm unsure about the whole S situation. I don't know why. We had a great time this weekend, but sometimes it seems like he's much more interested than I am. I enjoy being around him, but I feel like I could go a week without seeing him and not even notice. Why am I so numb?

Worst: My session today with R was really hard. There were tears. I might post more about this later, but basically it boils down to me sucking at therapy and recovery and life.

And a final random: Does anyone else find it ironic that I've been bitching all week about how much my foot hurts, only for me to experience THE WORST PAIN EVER when I bit my tongue during dinner tonight?

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