"All the Space in My Brain"

I am not diagnosing this woman with an eating disorder.....but damn this is what it looks like inside my head sometimes.

May (or May Not) Cause Weight Gain

                                                  Yann Kebbi

"I know how cloying it is to hear a thin person grumble about the roll in her stomach. But my relationship to my body remains fraught: I still find fullness depressing, hunger uplifting, weight-gain depressing, weight-loss uplifting. The more of me there is, the worse I feel. [...] Here’s a longstanding habit of mine: In response to depression, I diet. I starve out the darkness, replace it with numbers — calories, pounds, sizes, inches. Those numbers keep me busy. They occupy all the space in my brain."

P.S. Don't read the comments. Most are remarkably ignorant.