I promise I'm not such a downer in real life! If for no reason other than to keep my last post from showing up front and center, here are some happy things in my life:
- I love my classes and I love my job. And I love getting paychecks! (Boo unpaid summer internships.)
- My two best friends and I had a delicious dinner out earlier tonight. I didn't restrict or overexercise beforehand, and I was okay with it. I even got hungry later and ate an extra snack.
- The school/work/social balance is starting to come together. Fewer teary meltdowns.
- I had a really good session with R this past week. Good in that it was challenging and a little uncomfortable, but ultimately helpful, I think.
- I have an awesome Mama Bear who calls just to talk and has lots of good advice, even when she drives me nuts. ("Yes, Mom, I'm doing what Dr. R says. No, I'm not drinking too much. Yes, I get enough sleep.")
- Speaking of sleep: the horrible insomnia I had for most of last fall semester has not returned. Hallelujah. In fact, I've been sleeping really well, assuming I get myself to bed at a reasonable time instead of messing around on the internet or catching up on TV shows.
- I got an A+ (do they even still give those out??) on a paper that I worked really hard on and was really proud of.
- There might be A Guy.
Yay :) I know what you mean that sometimes I feel like I just complain about the bad stuff! So I loved this post, I loved hearing about all the positive things going on in your life.
ReplyDeleteFirst of all, you're NOT a downer! Hormones and stress and whatnot will throw anyone for an emotional loop, and people understand that.
ReplyDeleteWay to go on dinner out with your friends! Are these the ones you don't see as much because of where your apartment is this year? Really glad you were able to do that and enjoy it; staying connected to friends makes SUCH a huge difference in outlook and general life satisfaction.
Was the insomnia at a time when you were doing poorly with your ED? Because I've noticed a direct correlation between little food intake and little sleep. Just curious. Glad it's better this fall!
And Mama Bears are the best. :)
A Guy!? Details!
Regarding your last post, really sorry it has been up-and-down lately, but hang in there; hope your week gets off to a great start! <3
Thanks so much Lucy! Sometimes I need to step back and reassess and remember how much good stuff I take for granted. Hope you're doing well!
ReplyDeleteCammy - I think the insomnia was DEFINITELY related to ED. I've always been a bad sleeper but at my sickest, I'd literally only get like two hours a night. Even now, I still notice that if I don't eat well for a day or two, I'm up all night.